‘Not Caring’ Brings the Best Out of You

The other morning I decided to write something for a national newspaper. I chose some easy stuff which should not take very long. I made up my mind, took the chair and spent hours writing not a single complete sentence. Each time I wrote a phrase I clearly did hear a ‘laughing sound’ coming from those words as if they were portraying how the editor will laugh at my writing. Whatever, I ended up with nothing that day.

This did not happen only one time, every time I try to write something for someone else I lose my words immediately.

I am an amateur painter and I create at least one painting every day. Last week I saw there is an art competition based on a certain theme. I, with a heavy heart, noticed, that I am not being able to do anything presentable!

I saw people quite extroverts who can chatter all day with literally anyone yet when they have to speak on stage in front of everyone, they stutter! (I’m gonna write on ‘how to overcome stage fright’ very soon. Stay tuned!)

I was wondering to myself how come a person who has so much passion for writing cannot write anything when he actually needs it! Good news my friends, I have the answer now-

I write mostly for myself when I need it. When I really have so many things going on in my mind and I have no way but to write to set them free. As the only reason here is to make myself happy, I don’t have an extra bit of tension over the top of my head. I can use any word I want. It does not matter what language or tone I prefer because nobody ever gonna see it. There are no ‘SHOULDs’ or ‘SHOULD’NTs’ Ah, the pen can move so relaxed.

Cyril Connally, an English literary critic once told, “Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self!” I believe it’s not writing only… it’s pretty much anything when you are to give the best of yours. You care too much about what people will think, how they will receive you, what if they will not hear you etc. Pretty normal that it scares you and holds you back.

It is ridiculous that the worse hindrances come from the very thing we are going to work for. Why should one care a lot about people? How come not caring becomes too hard all of a sudden?

The lesson I got is, that whenever you do anything you MUST NOT CARE. I would like to change Connally’s tune a little bit- First you do things for yourself then if the result turns out good showcase it. If it seems funny just do something only for yourself with the passion and zeal you have inside. Let me know the result. Trust me when will not people but you, you will be at your best. Everyone knows that only those be praised and recognised and applauded by people around who achieve the highest.

I leave a little question for you now, ‘If the poets and novelists would not write following their passion, would they have the recognition?